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This is the first night im going to bed alone in over a year. I hate rolling over and feeling his side of the mattress ice cold and foreign. This is also the first time we have gotten in a fight and not made up. This time he left and said hed call me when he decided. There is no worse feeling than not knowing, it makes me incredibly nervous. Love is such a disgusting thing, and if things do not work out with me and Him, I will most likely become the most cynical person on earth. Its not that I cant live without him or function… its just he is the light of my life and i want him there forever. I just dont know who to tell this to because to be honest I dont believe anyone honestly cares. And I dont blame them.